tues 12 jun 07

wow i didnt realise i had abandoned this for nearly a whole week :o probs because i have been very naughty. i have really lost my way on this in the last few days, especially over the weekend, i went to a wedding friday and altho i loved that i looked great in my new size 20 dress ( with slimming pants oh the shame LOL) didnt drink at the wedding as i was driving, ate very carefully at the wedding, byt the time it was over dh was plastered and hungry again so we went for a kebab, and given that he had a skinfull i fancied a few beers myself.
saturday, dh needed a real brekkie to get over his headache so we did breakfast, then had a few beers in the evening ( i got squiffy on 4 cans of lager can you beleive it! LOL)
sunday i felt like a real brekkie myself so we did that again and then there was tea time, feeling like i blew it anyway we went for it. it is annoying when i made it doen to 15st 12 that i know now id be right back up there :( i wish i had the willpower to stick to this. i am trying to get thin for good and keep slipping, i know its not a race but id love to be a size 18 by aug 1st for our anniv. i really want to get a knockout dress for our meal out on holiday. also i have just signed up for a scrapbooking seminar in may next year so id like to loose a bit more weight for that, or at least keep off what i have already shed.

monday was much better, i tried, i really did, SF shake for brekkie, snack of shapers crispa ( horrible BTW dont go there, low cal or not!) then chicken tikka for tea with one naan bread and 3 popodums, only about 150 cals over what i should have had, but no excersice all weekend except on saturday when i took the dog out for a 2.2 mile walk

today, i have noticed i have 45 days till my anniversary, even less till my 5km walk, i really gotta get in gear.

today i have eaten

• breakfast SF shake and 1pt water
• snack defrosted prefrozen fruits of the forest and from age frais YUCK, they go all sour when they freeze them, will stick to fresh fruit from now on, didnt finish all 100 cals of it blergh!
• lunch sainsburys BGTY panini 140 cals, dollop cream cheese ( philli extra light) salad and tomato, probs no more than abotu 200 cals total and 1 pt of water.
• i have chicken out for tea and some peppers to use up but dont dare risk fajittas cos i always overeat them and besides we had chicken tikka for tea, dh will get worried by all this spicey food ( i only normally eat spicey when im preggers and im not!) will have to see what i can make to fit in with my cals allowance.

off to see if i can burn a few cals on the trainer machine too :)