oh the shame, 19th july

well i have been awol for three weeks, sorry about that. basic story is i have been tootling along on the diet nicely, bit too much beer i guess but still keeping at it mainly.
we have decided however to try for another baby ( this will be no 3) we have two at school now and will need to do some home improvement to make room for it but we are hoping to have a baby next year sometime ( not yet PG)
subsequenbtly i have dropped my multibionta for a pregnacare vitamin with floic acid in and that is about the only change except cutting out alcohol. i dont drink when i pregnant at all so i will loose weight there, also i get killer morning sickness so will find it hard to manage my diet as i have to eat dry bikkies before i get out of bed or i might as well just move into the bathroom for the day
that said i will try and keep to the calorific allowances for a while at least so i can shift a few more lbs.
good news is i got my dress for our hannoversary in 2 weeks eeeek ( you may recall i am dieting for the last 3 months to get lovely for our 9th anniversary so i can look good on our mini holiday)
its an 18 and i look fabby in it. cant wait to see dh's face when he sees me all glorious and resplendant :)
feelign really good about me right now :)

thursday 28th june

well been at this 2 months now and apart form the beer i cant seem to give up on, im doing well i have lost 1 and a half stone and seem to be shrinking still despite not loosing any more weight.

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF shake
• lunch - extra light philli pannini with rocket and lettice appx 250 cals
• tea - chicken tikka and 1 naan and 3 popodums appx 700 cals, 1 beer 187 cals (fosters is lower in cals than carlsberg i was drinking)

so mainly good, cant do any excersize at the moment, my knee got twisted on sunday and im on severly restricted movement to no exersize available, only 2 weeks to my race for life too so i hope im better fully by then.

weight currently 15st 12lbs, got my size 20 jeans on and feeling good :)

friday 22 june

im trying to re-double my efforts after pizza and beer last night :( god only knows what i weigh at the moment, i dont wanna know. im deffo going to be good today tho, when i go shopping ill only buy food im allowd, the freezer is completely empty and so is the fridge so its just as well im eating slim fast bars for brekkie LOL.
last night there was nothing it the freezer either so i went out for pizza, by the time i had de-nitted dd's hair (again) it was gone 8 and i was starving so i caved and went out for pizza, and beer ( altho i only had 3) i stopped when i realised i was not helping my diet.
feel all blo0ated today and wish i hadnt eaten what i did, so off to do some excersise today to try and work some of it off.
*shudder* to think what i weigh today...

monday 18th june

well past the 6 week mark but i have a couple of photos to show you, the sight of me in size 20 jeans may offend so look away now LOL.

still not so bad when you look at the befores LOL ( ps the befores are in black the nows are in jeans)







so as you can see everytthing is heading back up north ( makes a change LOL) im still struggling with my no beer pledge ( ok failing, i had a couple last night)

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF shake
• lunch - roast pork with roast and new potatoes and veg - appz 400 cals
• tea - chicken, boiled egg and new potato salad appx 300 cals
• 3 cals of beer at 220 cals each :o

overall i didnt do that badly when you look at it, also found out tht fosters lager is well lower in cals than carlsberg so if i cant give up altogether at least i can make an informed choice

saturday 16th june

well im on 6 weeks now and havent lost any more weight.
i knwo why ( its the beer, did you guess) i have been excersizing, i have been good with the cals on food, i have also been drinking beer again. i will try and not drink for a week, wthis will be hard because there is beer in the fridge but if im gonna shift more of this jelly belly in 6 weeks before our h'anniversary, i need ot be serious about this!

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - sainsburys fresh fruit portion 74 cals
• snack 2 large mushrooms stuffed with bacon, onion and mushroom with mozerella cheese topping appx 150 cals total
• lunch - sf bar 210 cals
• snack - 3 apricots
• tea - small roast dinner, two slices beef, 3 roast potatoes, 2 yorkie puds and veg, appx 500 cals.
• 4 beers at 220 cals each :(
• drank plenty of water and green tea tho, seems like im on the loo all day at the moment LOL

did 150 cals of excersize on top of all the running abotu i do anyway so hopefully that will dampen the worst of the calories.

no beer for a week, i can do this!

tues 12 jun 07

wow i didnt realise i had abandoned this for nearly a whole week :o probs because i have been very naughty. i have really lost my way on this in the last few days, especially over the weekend, i went to a wedding friday and altho i loved that i looked great in my new size 20 dress ( with slimming pants oh the shame LOL) didnt drink at the wedding as i was driving, ate very carefully at the wedding, byt the time it was over dh was plastered and hungry again so we went for a kebab, and given that he had a skinfull i fancied a few beers myself.
saturday, dh needed a real brekkie to get over his headache so we did breakfast, then had a few beers in the evening ( i got squiffy on 4 cans of lager can you beleive it! LOL)
sunday i felt like a real brekkie myself so we did that again and then there was tea time, feeling like i blew it anyway we went for it. it is annoying when i made it doen to 15st 12 that i know now id be right back up there :( i wish i had the willpower to stick to this. i am trying to get thin for good and keep slipping, i know its not a race but id love to be a size 18 by aug 1st for our anniv. i really want to get a knockout dress for our meal out on holiday. also i have just signed up for a scrapbooking seminar in may next year so id like to loose a bit more weight for that, or at least keep off what i have already shed.

monday was much better, i tried, i really did, SF shake for brekkie, snack of shapers crispa ( horrible BTW dont go there, low cal or not!) then chicken tikka for tea with one naan bread and 3 popodums, only about 150 cals over what i should have had, but no excersice all weekend except on saturday when i took the dog out for a 2.2 mile walk

today, i have noticed i have 45 days till my anniversary, even less till my 5km walk, i really gotta get in gear.

today i have eaten

• breakfast SF shake and 1pt water
• snack defrosted prefrozen fruits of the forest and from age frais YUCK, they go all sour when they freeze them, will stick to fresh fruit from now on, didnt finish all 100 cals of it blergh!
• lunch sainsburys BGTY panini 140 cals, dollop cream cheese ( philli extra light) salad and tomato, probs no more than abotu 200 cals total and 1 pt of water.
• i have chicken out for tea and some peppers to use up but dont dare risk fajittas cos i always overeat them and besides we had chicken tikka for tea, dh will get worried by all this spicey food ( i only normally eat spicey when im preggers and im not!) will have to see what i can make to fit in with my cals allowance.

off to see if i can burn a few cals on the trainer machine too :)

well i was good yesterday but irritatingly its TTOTM again, even tho it shouldnt be IYKWIM :( not a happy bunny.
did get a great dress to wear to a buddies wedding friday tho and it is a size 20 :)
yesterday i ate....

• breakfast - SF shake
• snack - SF peanut caramel bar
• lunch - jacket potato and prawn coctail salad, appx 300 cals
• tea - pizza & chips :)

( WW pizza oval 210 cals, extra sliced cherry toms, 30 cals, mushrooms 5 cals, pepper slices 10 cals appx, asdas baby mozzerella balls appx 5 cals total, and mccain microwave chips 173 cals per box. add a white soft roll to make a chip butty out of 113 cals and there you go, pizza and chips for 550 cals )

tuesday 5 june

morning, well i was really good yesterday - mainly cos i was too busy to cheat but here goes
yesterday i ate....

• breakfast - sf shake
• snack - BGTY fruit salad 100 cals
• lunch - SF shake
• snack - BGTY fruit salad 100 cals
• tea - linguini with mushrooma nd beef in a parsley sauce appx 400 cals ( and i didnt even eat all of it)

got 2.5KM on the eliptical trainer and i can do that without much pain (lol) so i will step it up and try and get to 3km today i have to get to 5 at least a week before the race (15/7/07) so i can go out and do 5k walking outside as that is different to insidewatching telly LOL. less than 2 months till the holiday now...

monday 4 june

56 days till my holiday.
yesterday i was really good on account of still not feelign very well i ate...

• breakkie - one slice of hovis bread toast 113 cals
• lunch - small roast dinner, one slice beef two spuds ( no oil) broccoli, carrots and a yorkie pud, appx 300 cals
• snack - strawberries form my very own garden :) yummmy!
• tea - ham sarnie. 2x 113 cals bread and 24 cals slice of ham, approx 10 cals for a splurge of salad creme

didnt drink a lot of water today but i didnt drink anythign else either LOL. no beer for me :) did 100 cals on the orbital trainer as well so a good day. i have to get the crunch machine out again tho, gotta get that tum in tone, my legs are lookign way better even if i do say so myself, i might just be happy abotu wearing a skirt for our anniv in 56 days :)

sunday 3rd jun

how did it get to june already! well again yesterday i was a good girl, then it all went to pot in the evening

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF strawb shake
• lunch - mcdonalds appz 500 cals
• tea - chicken and lemon sauce and rice appx 300 cals
• 3 cans of beer at 220 cals each :(

altho i paid for it, either the beer was off or the chicken was cos i was up all night being ill again, thats twice in a week, i have checked im not preggers so it must be either my allergy again ( altho i made the chicken and sauce myself so nothing garlicy went in there) anyway regardless i am a bit fragile today and dh is working so off to make a cuppa and hide from the kids for a bit.

friday 1 june

wow well 2 months till anniversary day. better get a wriggle on with this diet then..
yesterday i ate...

• breakfast SF strawberry shake
• lunch -SF chocolate bar
• snack - ww choclate mousse 101 cals YUMMMMMMMY
• tea - ww pizza and small box of microchips 400 cals the lot, so i had 200 left over for the beer i had with it

also had two more beers at an extra 400 cals but i really had a stressfull day ( mum took her dog on the long walk to the vet :( )

did 200 cals on the orbital trainer tho so averaged out at only about 200 over what i should have :)

weds 30th may

morning, i have been awol for a few days, sunday we had the unexpected pleasure of a babysitter voulunteering so dh and i went to see pirates of the carribbean 3 it was a really lovely day out then we went for pizza, yes i know naughty but trust me i paid for it, after telling them 4 times not to put garlic on it and the chap even saying there was deffo none when he bought it out . i was ill for 48 hours, i havent been that sick thru garlic ever :(
upside, i dont have to worry about the calories in the pizza ( no im not advocating bullimia) but hey silver lining to what was a very unpleasant couple of days.
yesterday i was only just starting to feel better but i started back on the slimfast (hadnt really been eating much of anything)
had some berries as a snack and made shish kebab for tea, i havent weighed in cos being ill will give me a false result. will blogg properly tomorrow, only 10 weeks till my holls :)

saturday 26th may

nearly 4 weeks now ( monday) and I feel great. dh came home from buisiness yesterday and I had really been missing him ( and beer:P) so he and I had a few beers it was lovely and I am not even worried abotu the extra cals cos I have been good all week and doing loads of excersice.

yesterday I ate....

• breakfast - SF chocolate bar
• snack - asdas fruit coctail in a plastic cup, 107 cals ( i was out and it was an emergency snack LOL)
• lunch - WW pizza, 210 cals, added on mushrooms and soem sliced sweet pepper, just needed something actually solid to eat
• tea - WW brocauli salmon and asparagus linguini i added some portabello mushrooms ( the really big ones) and some more sweet red pepper slices.

will have to get some linguini recipies myself tho as this one was a bit insipid. then i had 4 cans of 440ml carlsberg at 220 cals each.

excersice I did 200 cals on the orbital trainer and crunched 30 times my poor desperate stomach muscles LOL they were groaning but I feel better for it today. there is actually a dip in my silhouette at the moment! will do 1 month photos monday and let you all see but its nice that there is a gap between the bit where my boobs stick out and the bit where my belly sticks out LOL

thursday 24th may (76 days to go)

morning all :) been a bit awol for a few days.
news, i got weighed on the machine in boots ( the one in town where i know they just had it calibrated not the one in the village where the kids go to school what i know is 4lbs lighter than you actually are) and im still 16st 4. :) glad to have it corroborated.
dh came home tuesday night and bought beer and i really enjoyed it i guess you have to be in the mood and i didnt mind sacrificing some calories wednesday to make up for it.
my leg is still really sore so i have my tummy crunch machine set up instead and have been using that for a day or so top get some movement while not straining my calf muscle any more than i need to.
seen the absolute best dress in the world on ebay, but im not buying it till i will fit in it and so far in still a size 20 ( yes i know im only just a size 20 but it pays to think positive) LOL

yesterday i ate....

• breakfast - SF strab shake
• lunch - one egg, one toast, mushrooms in flora and one tomato
• snack - lamb stock cube 31 cals, 2 pts of water and a dash of chilli powder soup
• tea - chicken tikka, had to forgo the naan bread but had 3 popodoms with it
• water - including my soup 3.5 ltrs today

dd was off sick yesterday so i was stuck in the house and mooching abotu i found it hard not to pick at things, also ds turned the fridge up to 5 from 3 so his can of drink would cool quicker, unfortunatly this froze all the fruit and veg and today most of is it soggy and useless altho i did quite enjoy frozen blackberries and blue berries in the sun yesterday :P

taking mum and her dog to the vet today, he is really sick so it may be the last trip he makes and she will need some sympathy, i hope not cos he is a lovely little guy but she has 7 dogs so in sure her neighbours wont miss one more, my main worry is that i beleive these things come in ones or threes, dh's nextdoor neighbour for 30 years passed on yesterday and if zach ( the dog) goes today ill dread the phone tomorrow especially with dh working away at a power station, there is so much that can go wrong.

tuesday 22 may ~ size 20 !

woweeee, I tried on a pair of jeans I had in the cupboard today that are a size 20, I havent been able to fit in them snce I bought them they were an optomistic buy IYKWIM, still this morning I got in them with only minimal breathing in and once done up I can move and sit and breathe you know all the things that make jeans worthwhile :) Im so happy didnt get weighed yesterday cos I felt like a blob but I think Ill venture near the scales today ;)

yesterday I ate...

• breakfast SF shake
• snack - carrot
• lunch WW pizza 201 cals, I threw on some more sliced tomato (14 cals) and a couple of mushroom ( 3 or 4 cals) and had it with a salad of my own lettice ( first crop this year) and a couple of spring onions ( 24 cals) total meal appx 250 cals :)
• snack beef stock and onion soup, appx 10 cals, I sliced up the last spring onion and shoved that in a pan with 1pt boiling water and a beef stock cube, dash of chilli powder and away you go :)
• tea, homemade kiev style stuffed chicken breast with buffalo mozzerella and roasted baby tomatoes. with baby new potatoes covered in butter that just popped in the mouth scrumptious!
• water - incl soup 4 ltrs

havent done my salsa dvd for a few days but got a busy day today so will have to see if I can fit it in, did get 100 cals burn on the elip trainer yesterday so am keeping my 2.5km a day up. getting ready for race for life in 6 weeks so better get a move on, my leg is feeling better today tho so that is good :)

monday 21 may

well its now three weeks officially since I started and I dont dare weigh myself today, I feel fat. even tho I didnt cheat yesterday I just feel lumpy and groggy , hope Im not coming down with womething as I have not been taking my vitamins ( normally take a mulitbionta every day) and eccinacea for one week every month (1-7th so I dont forget) did a lot of housework yesterday but hardly any training cos I have pulled a muscle in my calf and I need to rest it, tried training thru it and I think I probs made it worse so im taking it easy on the foot work at the moment and will concentrate on some chair-obics.

yesterday I ate...

• breakfast - SF rasp smoothie ( nope still dont liek these, they taste like yop blergh)
• Lunch - SF strawberry shake (yum) these are deffo my fave
• snack - orange jelly with blueberries in it apx 13 cals
• tea - marinated chicken breast in a pitta bread - my own version of a kebab LOL
• water - 2ltr

so tired today will try and get my get up and go getting up and going. ( cant get ds out of bed either)

saturday 19th may

guess who lost weight! i weighed in this morning at 16st 4 :) i have lost a stone :)

really really wanted a beer last night and i resisted with the help of some support form my buddy T :)
yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF strawb shake
• snack - SF snack bar
• lunch - SF choc shake
• snack - jelly with blackcurrents in 42 cals
• tea - BGTY canneloni with extra mushrooms 340 cals
• water - 3ltr
• alcohol - none but really wanted some!

feel great today, will put the salsa dvd on today and get the kids salsaing :)

18th may 2007 (fri)

nearly at week 3 ( monday) and i weighed myself today ... 16st bloody 9
why wont the poxy weight shift! i did 2.5 km on the trainer yesterday and supposedly burn over 150 cals but again nothing. i was really good re the food i ate yesrterday...

• breakfast - one egg (78), one toast (82 cal hovis) a bunch of mushrooms (about 13 cals for 100g, i had way less than that) total 173 cals maximim
• no snack
• lunch - BGTY brocoli chicken and pasta in cheese sauce, 301 cals ( as i didnt have the mid morning snack)
• no snack
• tea - chicken tikka with one naan and 3 popodoms, approx 500 cals
• water - 2 ltrs
• alcohol - none even tho i really really wanted a beer :(

dh has to go away for a week to wales ( we are in southampton 3 hours away) we probably wont see him for over a week, if he is still there next weekend ill take the kids up to see him, he has taken the caravan so he has digs we can all use but i will miss him terribly, i cant sleep without him and i will be a total wreck when he is gone, i just hope i can stick to the diet and not cave in and return to comfort food and booze, i normally do.

have decided to get my old cross stich oput and have somethign to do with my hands at night when im watching telly, that way i wont pick at food.

thursday 17th may

morning all. you would be proud of me yesterday :D
bought a salsa dancing dvd on ebay last week and it came yesterday and i went thru the entire 45 min routine :D i have never doen it before so there was a bit of a learning curve but i got there in the end :) really enjoyed it as well, and got all hot and sweaty so heart rate was working :)
THEN i did 2.2 km on the eliptical trainer burnign up 100 cals , bit less of this and this and ill be skinny ribs in no time :)

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF strawberry shake
• snack - assorted mushrooms cooked in flora appx 50 cals
• lunch - LL bar
• snack - mixed berries, strawberry, blueberry and blackberry yum! appx 100 cals
• tea - fajittas appx 500 cals
• water - 3ltrs at least
• alcohol - none :)

despite dh drinking 6 beers in front of me i didnt touch a drop all night :)

with all the excersice and the abstenance, maybe i am back on track :) will let you know

wednesday 16th may

well, into the second week and doing well until dh bought some beer home as he had had a hard day, I resisited until we sat down for tea then he went to the fridge for a beer and got me one as well.:( I drank it and then a few more.

yesterday I ate...

• breakfast - SF chocolate shake
• snack - egg on toast 124 cals
• lunch - SF chocolate meal bar
• snack home made soup (chicken stock, four baby leeks sliced thinly and a dash of chilli powder and about 2 pints of water, shared with dh) appx 30 cals
• tea - cottage pie 213 cals with green beans and baby corn and broccoli.
• alcohol, 4 cans of 440ml beer, 220 cals each :(
• water - 3 ltrs
• excersice - burnt 130 cals today :)

I feel really bad abouu drinking as I didnt want it, I was quite happy not having any and didnt really enjoy it. problem is there is now still beer left in the fridge, dh is having a bad day again so will probably polish that off tonight and I have to try and be strong and not have any. its not easy when you are so used to it all the time, but I am committed to geting this weight off.

tuesday 15th may

felt bad after that chinese so was good yesterday :)
did 2.2km on the orbital trainer and burned over 100 cals :)

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - LL fruit bar
• lunch - boiled new potatoes and carrots appx 200 cals
• tea - BGTY tomato and basil chicken breast with roasted new potatoes 314 cals, and some roasted veg ( peppers, onion, leek, tomato) appx 30 cals
• alcohol - 2 glasses of pink champagne at 7% alc appx 150 cals total
• water - 3 ltr

havent been on the scales yet, hoping to have a few "good " days first :D

i dont like mondays 14th may 2 weeks

morning all :) well hmm how do I put this. last night was a feast of chinese food and beer. :( I know Im supposed to be , being good. and I did get out chicken in tomato and basil with baby potatoes for tea, dh had had a rough day and so had I and we enabled each other to cave in and get chinese and beer. today I tipped the scales at 16st 11lbs :( but it is all my own doing.
I think the frustration that in a week I havent lost anything even when I was being good has not helped, I diet a lot better when I can see results. ( and when I dont eat chinese food obviously)

yesterday I ate...

• breakfast I had a lighterlife bar ( will tell you about this later)
• lunch SF strawb shake
• snack mushrooms and WW ham sliced and cooked in flora proactive, est 40 cals
• tea, peking duck and pancakes with spring onion and cucumber with hoisan sauce (4) portion of satay beef, portion of roast port chinese style and 4 prawn crackers for the juice
• alcohol *gulp* 6 x 440ml cans of carlsberg at 220 cals EACH
• water, not a lot of room for water after all that beer

right, lighterlife. I got hold of some lighterlife bars on ebay ( they are strictly liscenced so that was rare) and had one for brekkie yesterday and they are not bad, the reason im throwing yet another diet product into the mix is that LL have an appetite surpressant in them, unlike WW and SF. they come in at 150 cals a bar so less than SF shakes or bars and it will keep me going thru the whole morning :) so I can save another 100 cals on the snack mid morning too ( am munching another one as I type) will get on the orbital trainer as well later as I have LOST to watch from last night so will sort 100 cals there too :) did consider LL as a diet but then i saw the cost £66 a week :o cant stretch to that neither can dh, even if it does mean a stone a month

I am back on the wagon of this diet and will be committed to it as I have seen a dress I want to buy and wear in hannover, wont buy it till it will fit tho...

sat 12th may

wow nearly 2 weeks, bit sad tho as I weighed in this morning and I havent budged form 16st 9. maybe the first weeks loss was a huge fluke caused by the loss of all thet alcohol from my diet.
bit let down that I havnt lost a poound or two altho I have had a nice italian meal out at a restaurant and some beers last night didnt help. sigh.
here is what I ate yesterday...

• breakfast - SF chocolate bar 210 cals
• lunch - 4" of french bread with WW ham and salad creme approx 300 cals
• tea - turkey fajittas, peppers roasted and a teensy sprinkle of fajitta powder to flavour the meat
• water - 3 ltrs today
• alcohol, 4x 440 ml cans of carlsberg. 220 cals each *sigh* feel really guilty now.

possibly that is where the non- weight loss is coming form *lol* never mind will be good today, had a 210 cal brekkie :) am getting really good at them.

friday 11th may ( the fry up )

well I worked out how to have a fry up for brekkie and still not smash the 215 cals limit too badly :)

1 slice warburtons white bread 65 cals ( only 55 cals for brown but I cant have brown bread in a brekkie)
1 fried egg with oil patted off ( not for a calorie reason but cos I have always done that to minimise oil on the plate) 78 cals
1 slice of bacon 88 cals ( colour me shocked at that)
one portion of mushrooms cooked in flora proactive 30 cals ( yes it was a small portion but enough to taste)
total 261 cals :D
given that I got my excersize machine out of the shed and pumped off 150 cals yesterday I am very happy with that as a breakkie, also I was so full I didnt need the mid morning 100 cal snack :D

what I ate for the rest of yesterday...

• breakfast - see above YUM! wont do it every day cos of the faffing involved but deffo a worth a sunday treat that wont be a massive cal overdose
• lunch - chocolate shake, forgot to put it in the fridge blergh! deffo chill them! they are much nicer
• afternoon snack, had the real munchies this afternoon so I grabbed a handfull of carrots and munched away will I got jaw ache :)
• evening meal, chicken tikka masala, I didnt use the weight watchers ready made one I used a jar and probably blew the 600 cals limit cos I had one naan at 163 cals and 4 pupodoms at 34 cals each on top of 300 calls of rice and about a half of a jar of the sauce, however I did have a go on the excersiser ( cant move legs today) so I felt justified.

really wanted a beer last night, we normally have beer with tikka you see ( well everything actually but normally beer with tikka) also I seem to have plateaued I am still 16st 9 this morning and even counting my lunch out the other day I have been relativly good :( am hoping it is just a water thing and it will start going down again soon. its times like this that I break and think well its not working anyway... but I will try and be strong :)

onhly 80 days till holiday

thursday 10th may

morning :) had a great day yesterday. great chat with my freind, great lunch with more freinds good day all round.

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF chocolate shake
• snack - 2 large carrots
• lunch - the most adorable canneloni I have ever tasted, no idea how many calories but it was devine! ( los amigos, winchester, UK)
• tea - i had a ready meal, i was going to have a shake ecause i ate at lunch but i was hungry again by 5 so had a 288 cal shepherds pie
• water - about 2ltrs wasnt paying attention
• alcohol - a medium large scotch and diet coke, but just one :)

been nearly 2 weeks now and i can feel my clothes getting looser, my undies fit ( they dont roll down when i sit and its a great feeling sad inst it LOL) cant wait to weigh in monday. hope to have lost a few more lbs :)
81 days till my holiday anniversary trip :)

wednesday 9th may

well i had a very enlightening trip reound asda yesterday, got some carrots to munch :) and some microwave chips. :D and some low cal bread, and some steak ,
yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - SF strawb shake
• snack - large raw carrot
• lunch - SF chocolate shake
• snack - red grapefruit
• tea - small steak approx 150g ( at 212cals per 100g) and small jacket spud, ( appx 250 cals) and baby corn ( appx 70 cals) and a drwoning of gravy YUM! a proper meal and still under 600 cals :D
• snack chip sarnie :) yes i know what you are thinking but, microchips 170 cals per box, i shared the box with dh and we had one slice of warburtons bread at 50 cals each folded over into this heavenly creation at just over 100 cals :) wow!

will have some carrots wityh me this morning as i am roudn at a buddys house for a chat and some tea :) then lunch out with my buddys dolly and JC. am really looking forward to it. will have to make choices abotu how to eat out, do i just blow the diet for that one meal and make sure i dotn stuff myself too full ( a lá paul mckenna) or choose boring on the menu? hmm well its dollys dads restaurant so i better do the food justice, besides im not in a race to get thin. this is for the long haul and i will probably be watching cals the rest of my life, one meal wont kill me :)

will let you know how it goes.

also today i dusted down my eliptical trainer and did a bit on it, burned over 100 cals that way. and that was just dustinag and getting it out of the shed i swear LOL

tuesday 8 may,

well weigh in day yesterday didnt go badly, still not budging form 16st 9 but hey at least its not going up.

yesterday I ate...

• breakfast - SF strawberry shake 210 cals
• snack - SF chocolate and peanut bar, altho that should be more "peanut flavoured" cos if you are expecting snickers forget it LOL
• lunch - SF chocolate bar
• snack - salad, lunch really didnt fill either of us up so we had a low cal approx 120 cals salad
• tea - BGTY sainsburys piri piri chicken, :( I think this had garlic in, I ususally check at the shop so I dont get it home and then discover it but I felt ill all night and had a really nasty tummy ache so Im convinced that was garlic induced. wont be getting that one again.

at a crisis with the ready meals idea, aside from being expensive, altho they offer the conveninece of knowing how many cals I am actually having, they do restrict us severly in that,
a) theres no option for extra low cal veg to bulk out the plate
b) a lot of them have garlic in them so I cant eat them
c) Im sick of poxy chicken already LOL

my mission today then is to find a decent easy to use cookbook with low cal recipies in it and start shopping for those. if I can have 600 cals in the evening then I want to enjoy them. also im craving a jacket spud LOL

monday 7th may, 1 week in :)

well I skipped yesterday and Ill tell you for why...

sunday I had a mcdonalds for breakfast, I got all the nutrition information off the web and even trying to minimise the calories I ate about 750 :o didnt have a snack all day and ate a low cal tea to try and minimise the cal intake, I still feel that this has slowed down my progress. wont be doign that again for a while!

today is 1 week and I still weigh 16st 9. this is good progress in a week I am very pleased with this as a starting point for the next week.

saturday I ate...

• breakfast - SF cafe shake *blergh* those can go to dh from now on they are iccky!
  
• snack - melon pack form sainsburys 52 cals
  
• lunch - SF choccy bar
  
• snack - SF fruit forest bar
  
• tea - chicken tikka WW meal 340 cals, 1 naan bread 163 cals blob of pataks chicken tikka paste as the sauce with this one is really weak and insipid, approx 50 cals
  
• water - 3 ltrs
  
• alcohol - 2 1ltr bottles of tiger beir, approx 300 cals each :o didnt enjoy those and wotn be having them again
  

sunday I ate...

• breakfast - double soss and egg muffin and hash brown with diet coke *gulp* 740 cals
  
• lunch - SF shake
  
• snack - celery, oh how I hate celery! altho the nasty taste in my mouth did stop me wanting to eat anything else for ages *shudder*
  
• tea - sainsburys BGTY sausage in onion cider gravy and mixed veg mash 340 cals with added 2 yourshire puds at 45 cals each and a portion of carrotts appros 60 cals
  
• water - 2 lr, drank loads of tea tho LOL
  
• alcohol - none

so today I started with a strawberry shake, I have MIL coming up today and the kids off as its a bank holl so stress levels will be high LOL.

determined to keep this going tho and not fall off the wagon again, added to that i didnt even really enjoy the mcD's

OMG its actually working!!! day 6, saturday 5 april

well i couldnt wait any longer, my beer belly has shrunk and i had to know if i had lost any weight.
today i weighed in at 16st 9 :)
wooohooo, that is 9lbs in less than a week. ( there are 14lbs in a stone arnt there) wow i cant beleive this is actually working. dh will be thrilled and i cant wait to see how he fares on the scales. well im really keyed up now and raring to keep this diet going :)

yesterday i ate...

• breakfast - half a SF chocolate meal bar, hungover and feeling
  ill so didnt want the rest
  
• lunch - cornbeef sarnie with
  salad and tomato, 412 cals approx ( salad creme is a killer)
  
• tea - WW chicken and brocolli pasta in cheese and parsley
  sauce 310 cals( burnt my mouth on that as it was hot inside the pasta, ouchy!)
  
• snack - peach
  
• snack - other half of
  breakfast bar
  
• water - 2 ltrs, ( dodgy tum)
  
• alcohol - you are kidding right LOL
  

felt awful all yesterday and today i feel fabulous becuase i have lost a heap of weight, over half a stone and i am so pleased. off to dig in the garden today and work of a few more cals.
also im walking the race for life this year and loosing a heap of weight before that will make training much easier, last time i managed it in 58 mins im hoping to better that this year, wont be running it tho, that is too much to hope for. if you wanted to sponsor me the webby is here. http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/traceyrmj2007 just started the fundraising and its two months away so i have time to get into better shape.

friday, may 4th day 5

well last night dh and i were a little naughty. we had a couple of glasses of wine. then a couple more and before we knew it 3 bottles had gone between us :( i know i certainly dont feel better for it this morning and im sure he doesnt. luckily my mum is coming over really early today to wait in while he carpet cleaner gets delivered so ill send her off to school with the kids because i dont think i should drive.

yesterday i ate

• breakfast - SF shake chocolate 210 cals
  
• lunch - SF fruits of the forest bar
  
• snack - 2 peaches
  
• tea - weightwatchers chicken in tomato and basil with new potatoes, 312 cals
  1.5 bottles of wine approx 1000 cals??

im not a wine drinker ( prefer beer) so i dont know my limits and i will remember that three bottles is too much in future, lol

day 4, thursday 3rd may

morning :) well yesterday was a strange kind of day. got up and had a raspberry smoothie ( like them or not I have a load in the fridge that need to get eaten) and traipsing around sainsburys with mum i found they do prepacked fruit portions with the cals marked on then, Hoooorayyyy! ( also sainsburys in Mytown have all SF milkshakes half price so i stocked up) I can grab a healthy snack and not rely on polyol filled SF snack bars :) so I bought some of those. also Im struggling with knowing how many calories there are in the meals Im producing for us, I have little or no knowledge of the calorific content of foods because as I said I used to be be an atkins-er so I can list the carb content af a gazillion foods but how manhy calories in an apple... erm !
so I had a brainwave, weightwatchers do ready prepared meals with the calories stamped right there on the front, even I can work that out plus as they are ready prepared I dont have to worry about cooking or preparing them.

what I ate yesterday

• breakfast - SF raspberry smoothie 212 cals
• snack - approx 100g strawberries, 34 cals
• lunch - SF chocolate milkshake and assorted melon sections from sainsburys 52 cals
• tea - weightwatchers chicken tikka and rice ( hmmm not exactly what Id call spicey and I dont really like relly spicey food, still it was edible and more importantly it had the calories listed ) 312 cals, plus one naan bread at 163 cals
• evening snack - SF cranberry and almond bar 99 cals
• water - approx 2 ltrs, just didnt get the time to drink more, but I did have a couple of extra cups of tea
• alcohol - none. ( and boy did the evening drag!)

dh has the weightwatchers lasagne as he loves that, he said this one was a bit flat and could use a couple of more layers, I replied that would probably add a couple of hundred calories as well. he seems to be getting stomach aches when he has the SF bars, I hope it is not going to be a problem as if he has to go on just shakes he will bore of this very very quickly! I will look into the soups and pastas available in the diet market and see if there is anything he could take to work instead. after all it doesnt have to be sSF, he could have a can of soup etc as long as the calories tally with the SF plan we should both continue to loose weight.
cant beleive its only thursday, seems like I have been doing this for ever!
off to the library to get some books on calories etc

wednesday 2nd may (day 3)

wow I had the munchies yesterday, it started right after my shake for brekkie ( raspberry smoothis not really what I was expecting and not my fave have to admit, which is strange cos I LOOOOVE raspberries)
had a real munchies on so I went out to get on with the garden with mum, had an apple to munch on. then at lunch time as she has worked on my garden all morning I offerd her lunch and we had a salad but Im surprised just how many calories there are in a mini pork pie, I kid you not there are like 193 cals and im sitting there going "I could eat this thing in one bite!" so I stuck to rabbit food leaves and tomatoes.

Im looking into negative caliorie foods, eg if a tomato has 50 cals in it but takes 75 cals to be eaten and digested by your body it leaves you with a negative calorie count overall of 25 cals. less cals less weight. or so it is supposed to go. still researching tho.
also been looking into ways to boost my metabolism, other than the normal mantra of excersice, excersice, excersice. I remember a while back when I was on the atkins, the shoping channel had another diet about heating up your metabolism with chillies etc, so ill see if I can get any info on that as if I can make the meals I do eat helathier and more fat burning wiht less cals then the weight will come off easier.

yesterday I ate

• breakfast - SF raspberry smoothie -212 cals
• snack - small apple ( home grown organically and the last from last year )
• lunch - salad estimated 600 cals, very shocked at that tho!
• snack - SF chocolate and caramel bar - 93 cals
• tea - pasta and tomatoes ( home made estimate 400 cals)
• water - 4 litres at least
• hot chocolate - options 40 cals
• alcohols - none
• final snack - SF fruits of the forest bar late evening when i got munchies again.

yes I know you are not meant to have two meals and all those snacks but as its TTOTM I feel justified as I didnt reach for the huge slab of galaxy I have im my scraproom. todays job is to go round and gather all the easter eggs that still litter the house and put them all in one place for the kids, they can eat them and keep them away from me, not a huge problem cos I never liked easter egg chocolate anyway. also today mum is coming over again to tackle the other half of the veggie plot so im getting plenty of the dreaded excersice! will probably make lunch for her and stick to my bars tho.

dh has taken a shake, a meal bar and a snack bar to work today but I have to find a healthy meal or snack alternative we can grab while out as his job means often he will be all over the place during the day.

good news is I feel better and altho I havent weighed myself ( and I have a very strong urge to) I think I am winning, altho all the bloating associated with drinking 6 cans of beer a night will be making a difference!

did you know the average can of larger has 220 cals :) will bear that in mind for when I have done my self imposed 2 weeks with no booze.;)

tuesday day 2

well today its mayday, not as in eeek help, but as in the first of may, I have all of may, all of june and all of july before my 1st of august anniversary. diet going quite well so far yesterday I ate...

• breakfast - full english, a gazillion calories but then I wasnt on a diet yet as I hadnt chosen one
• lunch - chocolate shake, 210 cals surprisingly not bitty like I recall slimfast, probs cos I bought ready mixed, still remember the powdery globs from the last time I tried it.
• snack - fruits of the forest bar 91 cals.
• tea - fajittas, no idea how many cals, cos I had peppers and onion and chicken to use up altho I did only eat 2 instead of my usual four
• drink - 3ltrs of water, I peed a lot yesterday LOL
• alcohol - none :)

so I did quite well, ill try the scales in another boots today cos the one in Mytown said I was 16st11 and they have to be calibrated every month by trading standards, my scales ( I have digital and analogue) said around 17st 4lb. so Im guessing that is the correct weight but either way it doesnt really matter. Ill use the scales at home to guage how much weight Im loosing and the hardest thing is not to weigh myself every day, Ill only do it on a monday ( Im not saying how many times on a monday) but only on a monday so I wont obsess about this too much. got mum coming over to help dig the garden today so that will be excersice.

Also managed to talk dh into the diet and make him think it was his idea lol, that said he went off to work with no shakes or bars so I guess he will be starting tomorrow.

also found a link to boots online where you can save 15% on bulk buying slimfast, so they work out at about £1.01 per shake, better than the £1.20 I have been paying :)

1st day of the rest of my life, yada yada yada

Hello and welcome to my blob blog. I have decided to make a go at dieting properly. my lovely dh and I are off for a holiday for our anniversary sans children in 91 days and I want to loose a heap of this flab before then so I can wear a dress and remind him why he married me :)

I did look in to lighterlife, and altho a buddy of mine has lost 4 stone in about 4 months I cant stick to that giving up food completely lark its just too hard. Im starting slim fast £23 lighter already I have weighed in at 17st 4lb this morning. I dont want to know what that is in killotonnes LOL

here are the before photos... *shudder*